Its been a difficult few days for me but I've got a lot accomplished. I always evaluate my life but have always been unable to feel good about it. Today I took steps to change that. I am telling myself that I have lots to be happy about and its true. I have a life many would kill for. I have a beautiful partner, a close, loving family, a circle o
f close and caring friends, a high-paying secure job, a car which I don't really pay for and a safe, comfortable home. Not to mention my health and extreme good-looks. I've had this all along but thus far have been unable to appreciate it. I've made changes in the past year and up until now I haven't really taken inventory and looked at how much my life has changed. I don't drink anymore which lead to better sleep, fewer digestive problems ie heartburn etc. I acquired a stable job which I like, it pays me well and I enjoy it. I've improved my surroundings and eliminated questionable people from my life.
As for the future, I bought a gym membership and I look forward to using it. I don't want to feel weak anymore. I want to be proud and confident of my body. I don't want to hide it in shame and cower at the thought of others seeing it. Just buying a membership doesn't fix it though, I must also commit to using it and applying myself every day. I will keep you posted on the results. I'm feeling good these days, I realized I've been going about life the wrong way. I'm looking forward instead of back. I will not judge or compare my life to what it once was. The life I had cannot be brought back, its nothing but memories now. It doesn't mean I can't have fun and be happy again though, it just means I have to realize that those particular days are behind me. I must admit though, this isn't a total mind-altering epiphany, its still going to take work to convince myself to think this way. Fortunately I have cognitive behavioural therapy experience. I'm looking into narrative therapy as well. aaaaand mindfulness. Which is related but a little more difficult.
There are exciting changes ahead and for once I am looking forward to what tomorrow may bring. Enjoy the memes, they make blog posts a lot of fun for me.
f close and caring friends, a high-paying secure job, a car which I don't really pay for and a safe, comfortable home. Not to mention my health and extreme good-looks. I've had this all along but thus far have been unable to appreciate it. I've made changes in the past year and up until now I haven't really taken inventory and looked at how much my life has changed. I don't drink anymore which lead to better sleep, fewer digestive problems ie heartburn etc. I acquired a stable job which I like, it pays me well and I enjoy it. I've improved my surroundings and eliminated questionable people from my life.As for the future, I bought a gym membership and I look forward to using it. I don't want to feel weak anymore. I want to be proud and confident of my body. I don't want to hide it in shame and cower at the thought of others seeing it. Just buying a membership doesn't fix it though, I must also commit to using it and applying myself every day. I will keep you posted on the results. I'm feeling good these days, I realized I've been going about life the wrong way. I'm looking forward instead of back. I will not judge or compare my life to what it once was. The life I had cannot be brought back, its nothing but memories now. It doesn't mean I can't have fun and be happy again though, it just means I have to realize that those particular days are behind me. I must admit though, this isn't a total mind-altering epiphany, its still going to take work to convince myself to think this way. Fortunately I have cognitive behavioural therapy experience. I'm looking into narrative therapy as well. aaaaand mindfulness. Which is related but a little more difficult.
There are exciting changes ahead and for once I am looking forward to what tomorrow may bring. Enjoy the memes, they make blog posts a lot of fun for me.
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